this past week She came by and and decided to stay uninvited for a while. now that she's packed her bags and is poised to leave, i am thinking about good things. things that will help me climb out of the hole and give me hope and faith in my place in this world. i am thinking about how i am not alone, and how these women's words (and countless others) lift me up and remind me of that. i am thinking about how grateful i am to have my sweet cousin jill, to talk to, and rant with, and hold onto, for she is all compassion and wisdom and humor and understanding, and love. i am thinking that even in my darkest hours, i still have deep wells of strength and resourcefulness that surprise me every time. i am thinking that i am so glad it is a rainy day today and i can stay in my pajamas and drink tea and snuggle with my little one. i am thinking about how my family still loves me, no matter what. i am thinking about the long weekend ahead and ways to create some warmth and joy for