Skip to main content

realities and blessings

our neighbor's house surrounded by the sea


i was really inspired by this post by maegan, so i wanted to share my own "because things aren't always wonderful here but at the same time...they are." i couldn't have said it better myself and i love the notion of always finding that silver lining.

reality: there has been tons of clouds and rain here lately which means flooding as well as being forced indoors for more days than i can count by now. i think we are all getting a little stir crazy.
blessing: there's been movie watching, book reading, projects to work on, and loads of hot coffee and tea to drink.

reality: my trip to the market yesterday was hampered by an unexpected (and very long) traffic detour, and then my exhaust blowing out on the highway.
blessing: i got to meet up with one of my favorite moms who always fills me with inspiration and love, and not to mention the best handmade goodies.

reality: there have been frustrating days where i feel like just packing up my bags and abandoning motherhood. sometimes i just feel completely overwhelmed and in over my head.
blessing: i know that most days the drama of it all is just that, and i would never choose another life. ever. i see my children both becoming beautiful little people and i am so proud of them every single day.

reality: my work over in the wishstudio has been really, really busy. things are happening, growing and becoming... but it all takes a tremendous amount of time and energy which also requires a lot of juggling for everyone under this roof, which isn't always easy.
blessing: i can see the big picture now as it is emerging right before my eyes. this work is so fullfilling and joy-filled and i know it has the potential to sustain me (and my family some day). so many wonderful opportunities are being layed at my feet. having found work that is also my passion is huge.

reality: i'm getting older... i wouldn't say i'm old, but i definately see wrinkles and feel a little creek in my bones some mornings :) the superficial aspects of aging don't really worry me all that mich, but taking care of my health is a big concern.
blessings: with age comes wisdom and i'm starting to get a taste of that. i appreciate having lived these 38 years which have all brought me to this very moment. i feel an acceptance and a comfort about who i am that i did not have ten years ago. it feels cozy and safe and good.

reality: my husband and i have been passing like ships in the night lately. we are tag team parenting, taking shifts to get everything done and give one another a break when needed. it's not ideal but sometimes necessary, and i miss him.
blessing: sometimes it is a fine dance and other days it is just a force of circumstance, but i appreciate that we can be there for each other even if that means being seperate.

hope that your realities are full of blessings too... i know they are :)


Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Inner Alchemy Cards: Build A New World Deck

Our next make-your-own card adventure is finally here! Inner Alchemy Collage: Build A New World Deck (online) is an artful exploration of language, learning, inspiration, and collaboration, that delves into important ideas around activism and systems of oppression. This is a way for us to examine and disrupt harmful dominant narratives, tell new stories, and inspire one another to use our creativity and personal power to help build the collective world we all want to live in! In the end you will have a beautiful and meaningful handmade deck of 35 oracle cards to use as unique a tool for guidance and reflection whenever you need it.  I'm your host,  Mindy Tsonas Choi , an artist, organizer, radical belonging activist, and the founder of the Be Seen Project - a grassroots initiative resourcing BIPOC artist and makers working in activism. Join me along with other stellar artists, makers and co-creators who have also been exploring social justice and activism as part of their creativ

The Cost of Selling Belonging

As someone who use to sell belonging and believed I was creating something universally magical , I now have fresh eyes on the harm that I once caused. I understand what can (and was) incredibly healing and impactful for some, was at the same time excluding, marginalizing and undervaluing others. First, to anyone who ever felt like they did not belong to anything I created because they were unable to afford it or felt like they did not have the social capitol to join -  I am sincerely sorry for not seeing you sooner .   To our entire creative community as a whole, I urge us all to think about belonging in new and equitable ways, and to do the work of dismantling these hierarchical structures that leave so many people out of the circle. We all deserve to have access to creativity and belonging, and I'd go so far as to say both are fundamental basic human needs and rights. Selling belonging can look like... Creating spaces and experiences that can only be accessed by buying in at one,

what's in a name?

It’s May 14, 2020 and I’m on a transnational call with a social worker and translator of the SOS Children’s Village offices in South Korea. It’s 7pm my time and 9am the next day in Korea, which adds to the surreal quality of the moment. It is my first long distance call following my inquiry with the organization documented to be my first place of entry into the system, found in my Korean records (the acquisition of which is an incredible story in and of itself). It was July 21, 1972 and I was 5 months old. It’s a small miracle the organization still exists, and an even bigger blessing that they took such time and care in searching for information and to talk it all through with me in person. I try not to cry as the call connects. What I learn is a lot of small details about that fateful evening which amount to nothing traceable, but still feel like huge missing pieces of my life. I was left near the entrance around 7pm under a small tree, wrapped in a blanket with only a name scribble