Skip to main content

a gut feeling



Literally and figuratively.

Right now, it's all about my gut.  From tomorrow's surgery to fix an incisional hernia from my last c-section, to trying to listen carefully to a bevy of internal feelings, reactions and intuition, my midsection has been showing up with lots of lessons for me and has been my most prominent teacher this year.  It's caused me to slow way down, put some bigger projects back in the incubator and shift my thinking about nourishment in a broader way including what, why, and how I want and need to be fed.

It feels like a turning point, a milestone, getting my belly fixed.  It's pushing me to make some important, long term decisions about my health and about my lifestyle, and what lies on the other side is  a sort of healing that I have been working toward for what seems like forever.  Not just healing of the physical, but a deep healing of some emotional messiness as well that apparently I've been carry around in my gut for some time.  I know this injury showed up as a loud reminder and sort of the last straw to get my shit together or there could be more ugly consequences.  Many points on my journey (and in my body) are begging me to get this right.  After going gluten free for a good portion of this winter, and feeling so much cleaner and clearer, I know this is one of the changes I'll be leaning into along with being more in tune with my physical self overall.    

I am looking forward to getting the actual surgery over with and being on the other side of this roadblock.  I've been in pre-surgical limbo since the new year, and I can feel all my energy jammed up and out of flow.  I haven't been able to move and groove like I want to, or make any real plans.  It's been really stifling, but I've been doing my best to roll with it.  I'm ecstatic about getting to be in my body again without pain.  I miss barre classes and yoga and chasing my kids and comfortable sex.

Mostly, I miss feeling centered and strong and whole.

This is where I'm heading to next... strengthening my core from the inside out and really making it my priority, my foundation, my sanctuary (<---- word of the year, the intent has been there all along).

Clearly, it's all a blessing in disguise.  My springtime is truly about to arrive.





Comments

  1. Good luck tomorrow. I can relate to the gluten free thing, been there since November and I love how much more energy I have. This will help heal you too I am sure. xox

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. oh, good for you! glad to be in wise company with you. i guess that means no more hermits? ;) thank you for the love and wisdom xo

      Delete
  2. Sending you so much love! Fall deeply into rest and healing. xoxo

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. i love that idea! yes... deeply falling xoxoxo

      Delete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Inner Alchemy Cards: Build A New World Deck

Our next make-your-own card adventure is finally here! Inner Alchemy Collage: Build A New World Deck (online) is an artful exploration of language, learning, inspiration, and collaboration, that delves into important ideas around activism and systems of oppression. This is a way for us to examine and disrupt harmful dominant narratives, tell new stories, and inspire one another to use our creativity and personal power to help build the collective world we all want to live in! In the end you will have a beautiful and meaningful handmade deck of 35 oracle cards to use as unique a tool for guidance and reflection whenever you need it.  I'm your host,  Mindy Tsonas Choi , an artist, organizer, radical belonging activist, and the founder of the Be Seen Project - a grassroots initiative resourcing BIPOC artist and makers working in activism. Join me along with other stellar artists, makers and co-creators who have also been exploring social justice and activism as part of their creativ

The Cost of Selling Belonging

As someone who use to sell belonging and believed I was creating something universally magical , I now have fresh eyes on the harm that I once caused. I understand what can (and was) incredibly healing and impactful for some, was at the same time excluding, marginalizing and undervaluing others. First, to anyone who ever felt like they did not belong to anything I created because they were unable to afford it or felt like they did not have the social capitol to join -  I am sincerely sorry for not seeing you sooner .   To our entire creative community as a whole, I urge us all to think about belonging in new and equitable ways, and to do the work of dismantling these hierarchical structures that leave so many people out of the circle. We all deserve to have access to creativity and belonging, and I'd go so far as to say both are fundamental basic human needs and rights. Selling belonging can look like... Creating spaces and experiences that can only be accessed by buying in at one,

Welcome to Rebel House

REBEL House is a place for radical art and co-creation where we practice Radicle Belonging as activism. This is the next iteration of my public (free) Patreon , and how I am building, connecting, igniting and activating. Welcome and deep gratitude for being a part of this communal living, dreaming, doing space and helping to create it! This is a collective belonging space, an initiative, and a movement house. It's where Radicle Belonging is praxis work for generative practices and disruption through connection - intentional and actionable. We are people coming together with a common goal: to use our creative visionary force to more impactfully belong to ourselves and one another. Your presence is always what is most valued.  We are doing togetherness differently here. What REBEL House is NOT: A space that values like-mindedness over active inclusivity. Sameness in belonging is only dividing us further. Pay to play. Anyone can be a part of this movement house by simply showing up