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leaving to arrive

"Be ready at amy moment to give up who you are for who you might become.

I've been inching my way out the door, slowly letting an old version of myself go. Moving to the new studio space is more a result than the catalyst, a physical manifestation of how I am arriving in a brand new place.

Yes, it's true. I've been here before reaching for a dream that's felt like a part of me for as long as I can remember. What's hard to see without distance and perspective is that the work is not a circle going round and round. It's a spiral, like a staircase bringing you higher and higher and closer to your truth every time you step forward to try and try again. Nothing ever fails.

The difference is, this time, I know who I am. I am filling my space with what I know and what I have to offer.

For so many years I lived as a shadow artist, surrounding myself with the light and talents of others which kept me in some ways from having to really figure out what my own voice might be. Wishstudio was about collaboration and community, both beautiful and powerful and necessary lessons I had to learn first. It taught me to be brave with my heart. Brave creativity gave way to brave self discovery, which allowed me to finally seek my own fire.

What I'm leaving behind are very old stories. They are the ones that tell me all the tales of 'not enough'...not enough time, not enough money, not enough energy, not enough worth, not enough love. These are the narratives that have also tried to keep me safe. I bow in gratitude for how these parts have served me, but it's time for me to more fully be seen.

This is exactly why launching a business or any creative project is also about wild vulnerability and love. It is all a part of who we are. It reflects back to us where we might be at any point along the way. The clues are all around us, not just in what we make, but in how we choose to live.

What are you saying 'yes' to?

What are you saying 'no' to?

To be safe AND deeply seen, you have to choose yourself - your worthiness, your gifts, your light, your desires, your imperfect and ugly truths. You have to say YES to everything you are - every beautiful and messy part - again and again and again.